Wednesday, May 10

Practical or sensitive??


In one of the very unusual English class we had in the college, we were more unusually taught a chapter!! Yeah there r no English classes in the college.. students bunk one day and teachers bunk the other 3 dayz in the 4 English classes officially allotted per week!! So in one such class, we were taught a story titled “Grief” by Anton Chekov. I don’t know how many of u have read that so thought of briefing down the story .. newayz its always good to read a story.. here it goes…

Iona Potapov is a cab driver who lost his son
(eks.. that was the climax!!!!). And the whole story was circulating around the fact that he couldn’t get even a single person to share his grief.. as the title suggest. The author had described Iona as “a white pale phantom bent double as far as a human body can bend; he is seated on a box and never moves. If a whole snowdrift fall on him, it seems as if he would not find it necessary to shake it off. His little horse is also quite white and remains motionless.” There were many passengers who came to him and on the way he tried his best to initiate a conversation with them and to tell them about his great loss.. but the world was so busy with their daily chaos that they didn’t had time for him. He couldn’t even drive properly and his passengers were constantly abusing him as he was very rash on the road and even stopped at places.. maybe coz he was overwhelmed with his grief. Below are the conversation with his passengers,

1) Iona looked around at the passenger and moves his lip. He evidently wants to say something, but the only sound that issues is a snuffle.

“What?” asks the passenger

Iona twist his mouth into a smile and with an effort says hoarsely: “My son, Barin, died this week.”

“Hm! What did he die of?”

Iona turns the whole body towards the fare and was about to start when the passenger cut short saying “Turn around! The devil!”

Several times again, he looked at his fare, but the latter has closed his eyes.

2) They were a group of three guz and were having a conversation amg themselves. The conversation was well described in the story but am not gonna do that!! Iona looks around at them several times; he waits for a temporary silence, then turning round again, he murmurs:

“My son – died last week.”

“We must all die one day, Now, hurry up!!!!!!”

3) “Hey cabby are u married?” asks the new one

“I? Hi, hi, what a man! Now I have only a wife: the moist ground… Hi, ho, ho.. that is to say, the grave! My son died, and I am alive.. a wonderful thing, death must have mistook the door… instead of coming to me, it went to my son…”

Iona turns round to tell them how his son died, but at that moment the passenger, giving a little sigh, announces, Thank God, they have reached the destination, and Iona watches them disappear through the dark entrance. Once more he is alone.. surrounded by silence…

His grief, which he had abated for a short while, returns and rends his heart with greater force. With an anxious and hurried look, he searches among the crowds passing on either side of the street to find if there is ONE person who will listen to him. Yet it is such an immense, illimitable grief. Should his heartbreak and the grief pour out, it would flow over the whole earth it seems, and yet, no one sees it. It has managed to conceal itself in such an insignificant shell that no one can see it even by day and with a light.

At the end of the day and the end of the story,

“Are you tucking in?” Iona asks his horse, looking at his bright eyes; “go on, tuck in though we’ve not earned our corn, we can eat hay. Yes! I am too old to drive – my son could have, not I. He was a first – rate cab driver. If only he had lived!”

Iona is silent for a moment, and then continues:

“That’s how it is, my old horse. There is no more Kuzma Ionitch. He has left us to live, and went off pop. Now, lets say, you had a foul, you were that foul’s mother, and suddenly, let us say, the foul left you to live after him. It would be sad wouldn’t it?”

The little horse munches, listens, and breaths over the master’s hand…..

Iona’s feeling are too much for him and he tells the little horse the whole story………!!!!!! Well this was the climax!

At the end of the chapter, sir asked the class, “what will u do if u r walking on the road and an old man (stranger) comes to u to share his so called grief!????”

The bell rang and that was the end of the discussions and the English class that v had in the college. .. he he..

But the question, I must say is worth giving a thought. Practicality or sensitivity?? If u r sensitive, u vl definitely sit to listen to an absolute stranger seeing his/her sad face and the emotions with which the person approaches u. But practically thinking, its not safe to entertain such people. What if that person is a robber and robs u off.. After all, that person is a stranger isn’t it? Does that mean that if a person is practical, the person is insensitive? I mean.. when it comes to this situation, what will u choose for. If u don’t lend ears to the stranger’s words then w.r.t u, u r practical but w.r.t that stranger, u r insensitive!!! Isn’t it????

Tuesday, May 9

Discover "Inner beauty"


This is a newspaper article .. really really impressive one. I read it when so ever I feel depressed ... belive me it works!!!!


“When you like yourself, you go beyond the barriers of loneliness”…….. Silver Jade


A year ago, a beautiful woman came to see me. Her husband had been cheating on her and she wanted some advice regarding her future...

Even tough her eyes were dull, shoulders drawn and her face sad; I managed to look beyond that, look beyond her sadness. Did you know that when you go “beyond”, you can create new things? I told her to go look in my bathroom mirror. She came back and I asked her what she saw. “A FOOL” she replied. I told her hat she needed glasses and to go and look again. And again. By the third time she was almost in tears but she managed to acknowledge that she was beautiful!

When we are unhappy, especially in times of extreme trauma, the spirit cracks, even fractures into tiny pieces. In order to put that together, you need to start filling piece by piece. No one in this world can make you happy.

You need to like urself and achieve happiness from within. Nothing can bring happiness in u except u. your lover or husband or parents can add to that happiness. However, they cannot initiate the feeling...

How many times have you said or heard the words: I will be happy if... And follows the… if I win a million, if my husband is less grumpy, if I meet lover.

Our happiness is based on conditions. Not so. Happiness is the emotion that produces little tingly sensations in the brain. That is why chocolate uplifts the spirit. The brain sees it as happy food and soon you feel better!!!!!

In order to really like yourself, you need to embrace your good points and divide your bad points into two groups. There is a group of bad points that you can change and one that you cannot.

If you are five feet and two inches tall and you do not like it, so sorry, you have to deal with that. No miracle can turn you into six-footer. There are things in life that you cannot change. In order to be happy, you need to accept them and learn to live with it.

If you do not like it when it rains, and become all depressed, you need to see the depression is triggered by a symptom. No use treating the symptom if the cause is not fixed. You need to go “beyond” the symptoms to find and fix the cause.

Change what you can and look at what you cannot change from a different angle. Did you realize that being short has its own advantages? Look “beyond” the physical, emotional and the mind. See the perfection of your spirits. If the spirit is allowed to shine through, your emotions and thoughts will lighten and you will feel happier.

Nothing is impossible. “Nothing” does not exist. Therefore, you need to accept that all things are possible. No one is just good or bad. If you do not have bad points, there is imbalance, because the YOU as focal point needs good and bad in order to show the balance. Even the most successful people have weakness.

You are with YOU every year, every hour and every second. I did not say that I like your bad points; I said “I like YOU”. Like yourself. Soon you will relax and start looking at the things you do not like, changing what you can and accepting what you cannot. That is when miracle occurs. When you like yourself you go “beyond” the barriers of loneliness. Your appearance changes, even if you did nothing to make it look different on the outside. People will be drawn to you. Your boss, your friends... Everyone will recognize your talents.

This is because when you do so, you have a vibration of being content. You will be happy. When you are happy, it just reflects on your face. Having yourself as a best friend has advantages. You cannot lie to yourself. You can be kind to yourself. You will not be lonely because in balance, you will not mind times when you are on your own.

Trust yourself and have faith in the Creator. You are not here by coincidence. Go beyond and see how being YOU, can change your life and others.

That beautiful young women did all these things. Soon her eyes sparkled and she was even lovelier than before. Her shimmering spirit and kind nature drew lots of friends to her. At one stage she even had a choice of men wanting to be with her all the time! She chose one. She shares her secret of inner and outer beauty. She is her own best friend and she really likes herself.

Be YOU. Like whom you are. Trust who you are. You have to be happy for yourself. If you find it hard, look for someone to help you achieve that. Enjoy discovering your inner beauty!

Thursday, May 4

Best Friend !!


He is never wrong!


The creator! The almighty! My best friend!


Ever wondered, how miracles happen?? How ur dad gets chocolate ice-cream exactly when u feel like having it? How ur mom makes the dish u wanted to have for the past 2 days but never told? How do u get sms or missed calls from ur friends when u just think of them? How do u get an internal choice for a 7 mark question u forgot to prepare?? Well... that’s because ur best friend is there with u ALWAYS... to take care of u... to guide u... to surprise u... to make u feel good and happy!!


Many people ask for the proof of his existence. But he is not a matter! He is dust... he is air. He is faith... he is belief!! His presence can be felt and not proved! He can always be felt by those who need his help and remembers him. If u can’t realize his presence, then u need to believe in him harder.


Many a times ur best friend don’t fulfill ur wishes :( gives u pain and makes u cry!! But that’s just to show u the other side of life! Failures and success go had in hand and sometimes a failure teaches a lot!! When he fails u, he gives u the strength to try again... to go ahead and make things better. He troubles u till u learn the new thing he wanted u to learn and once u have learnt that, he is again ur helpful best friend. True prayers r always heard. Pray for others and it is sure to work!!


I donno y but Lord Ganesha is always the one I like the most! Yeah! Yeah! I know all that – god is one etc.etc. But is always Lord Ganesha for me!! Its not that I don’t go to gurudwaras and churches and all or don’t worship the other gods but when so ever I go to a temple, I just like to stand in front of Lord Ganesha’s statue and talk to him... (Sometimes loudly too which becomes quite embarrassing later... lol...) D faith that he will take care of all things is enough for miracles to happen.


I wrote this poem on god when I was in 7th class... One of my all time favorites in my work….


“GOD”


God is great!
For your help he will never be late
When you will meet him is all your fate,
He can’t give you a particular date.

Oh god,
You are a fraud,
Many people say so,
Coz they are lazy to bow.

I believe in you,
But you are believed by only few.
Else says there is no such thing,
For whom you praise and sing.

You cant make us live forever,
You can make a fool – clever.
You are a power everyone should fear,
Coz your anger no one can bear.

Oh god! I am your lover,
Coz I know you are a super power.
You can change thorn to a flower,
You can change water to tower.

You are in every heart,
You are in the wheel of a cart.
You are in every eye,
You will never die.

You are in moon,
You are in sun,
Tell me,
Why are you always made fun?????

My Big Brother... Satyan



He deserved a separate post!!


Dyslexia! That’s what is the so – called medical disorder my brother suffers from! He is just a year and a half elder to me and 1 year senior to me academically. I was in 2nd class and he in 3rd when I noticed that my brother is not “Normal”… he is not like the other brothers who teach their small sisters to count. Rather he is the one who himself don’t know how to count! He is not “Normal”… but why is he so? Whom to ask? Mom was always very understanding and could read my mind with ease... she told me... yeah! Ur brother is not “Normal”... he is “Different”... he is “Special”! I marked those words... he is “Special”! He really is! Mom is a working lady but more than her office she was present either in home or in school coz my brother... as people called him... is “Abnormal”!!! I remember when I understood things then I decided to be his elder sister and guide him! I used to ensure mom that I vl take care of him and persuade her to go to office during summer vacations and in her absence would teach him how to count, read time, how to hold a pencil! Gosh! How glad I was when he could draw a circle for the first time!!! When v used to cross the roads, he used to hold my hands so tightly that his nails would pierce through my skin and my hands would bleed! But now when I see him lecturing me about how to walk on roads... well… I just Smile!!!


We were in the same school together since 1st class. There was once a picnic announced when I was in 4th and that was for both 4th and 5th class. In my class I was appointed the in charge of the troop… so glad was I… always loved acting like a leader... lol... I was just floating in the air coz of that new post when my brother’s class teacher sent a word for me. She said my brother can’t accompany us coz no one can take his responsibility... Not even me!!! I cried like hell non – stop for a week... still crying remembering that day! I rushed home... took a bat and started hitting my brother and he was there... no reaction... I thought what an “Insane” he is!!! I was so upset coz I knew I can’t go without him! But my genius parents made it! They said I should go on and they vl bring my brother later, in charge – my parents! After that day many things changed. I don’t think I did a very wrong thing to hit my brother that
day coz that one act took away all the ill feelings I had for him and he got back his “Special” position.



Mom and dad really worked hard with him and he passed his 10th and 12th boards in first attempt! Much much to my surprise!!! When I was in 11th, a trip to Mt.Abu for both 11th and 12th class students was announced and the history repeated! Teachers didn’t allow him and I was the in charge again!!! But my mom – The great! Accompanied us all the way to Mt.Abu. She is the best! Now my bother is so much “Normal” that if I tell people about his past, they will call me “Insane”. All to my parents efforts and determination to bring him up. He is no more “Abnormal” but yeah he is still “Special”. My days of enjoying as his elder sister are over now and now he treats me like I am a small kid!!! He teaches me how to live in this world… lectures me… asks me where I went… cares for me… scolds me…and all I do is Smile!! He gave a card to me on my 16th birthday which touched my soul. The words were….


Sister, when I think about ur most lovable interests, your childlike dreams and fancies and the way you get excited easily over little things, I smile and feel lucky to have a lovely sister, who is as innocent as a little baby, a sister whose tender ways never cease to win a million hearts, a sister who is different, who is the best…. THANK YOU!!


Green ez Divine.........


















Being a Vegetarian is not all that bad after all………


I used to have a few regular visitors to my garden... they were never alone… always in a small grp of two or three guided by a man. I donno D technical name for that man but I used to call him gopherd... Shepherd for the one with sheep so gopherd for goat... loll... he used to bring some goats to my garden and we both used to pick up the tender most leaves from the plants and feed the goats with those. I loved playing with those heavenly creatures... such tender ears... felt like a very very soft silk cloth of the supreme quality!! That feeble nose... really cute nose they had and they cuddled themselves in my arms when I used to touch their nose. Their eyes had that life! That spirit! When they used to look up at me, I would feel them talking to me saying, “COM’ on! Cuddle me, be close to me. I like u when u come near me and touch my nose. I love to lick u all over the place even when ur mom is standing behind u, fuming!!! I love to see the way u fight with ur mom to play with me... u and me... perfect companions.” They never put weight on their legs and from a distance they would look like a biggg faaaaat pillow balanced on just 4 matchsticks!!! 15 daz one herd and after that a new set. I didn’t knew what happened to them after 15 daz coz I used to be busy befriending the new once...


One day I asked the gophard, “What do u do with those goats after 15 days???” he didn’t answer and never ever came my way again!!! Weird... isn’t it??? Did I ask something wrong??? What??? I was behind my mom’s life for the answer. She had to answer coz she couldn’t run away! She tried her best to avoid the topic but I wouldn’t leave her. Finally one fine day she said that all the goats are killed after 15 days. What?? Killed?? Is it?? Hello!!! No! It can’t be so! Come again!!! Don’t tell me that! Oh my god! U mean it?? Mom! Answer me!!! I know u r always right but did I hear killed??? No mom! Please say I heard something wrong!!! How can anybody be actually so inhuman to kill such heavenly creatures?? They got such cute nose!! Killed??????????????


I always avoided the company of non-veg eaters in a party and all... in school I always had lunch alone. What if anyone there relish chicken in front of me?? School was easy to manage alone but not after that! As the social circle increases, many things r not possible. I don’t understand how anyone can party in the funeral of a chick or a fish or a goat, the one with such a cute nose!! When I see people ordering chicken burger and stuff, I feel like banging my hand on the table and shouting, “ If u really relish these flesh and blood so much then y don’t u cut ur parents into pieces, cook then and eat them away?????!!!!!! They too have flesh, blood and a soul like this chick had!!” but I have learnt to ignore a lot many things... maturity u see!! I now know that it is utter waste of time arguing and explaining things to such heartless... Inhuman creatures... who don’t value a LIFE!! Yeah! That chick, that fish, and that goat (the one with such a cute nose!!) is a LIFE!!!


I wrote this poem when I was in 5th class. Not at all a fine work and I can polish it now but I wanna freeze my childhood innocence with which I tried writing a poem on such a vital topic. One of my most cherished works………


“SELF PITY”


Don’t cut me, cries the trees.
Take mercy on me, pleads the bees.
Don’t hunt me, animals yield.
You can hear this in every field.

Why do we human don’t hear their plead?
Why do we keep our ears sealed?
Why do we pretend to grow trees?
Why do we say we help the bees?


One day a calamity we will face,
The earth will show its new face.
Against us the others will put up a case,
And there is only defeat that we will face.

Please open your eyes,
Do see to their cries.
Learn what is humanity,
Make world a sinless city.

Wednesday, May 3


No Admission without Permission !!

This is my page and I am the princess here so I rule! Am gonna pen down my thoughts and lots more here. I will write what so ever damn thing I feel like writing!! Read if you are interested, but no arguments! I am just writing down my views and not arguing!!! And yeah u r not allowed commenting on my post until and unless I personally invite u to check out my blog :)