Dip in the Deep

Its not a perfect world... the one we live in. The idealistic rules simply doesn't apply here... as my new friend Ram, who by the way is a hockey player, told me the other day, "u gotta fight for survival".

I was merely floating with the tides... ups and downs were a part of it when suddenly I felt sinking... down down... I couldn't breath.. it was so heavy.. I felt it pulling me down with all its strength... I hit the bottom. I froze. I opened my eyes and found myself stuck, unable to move.. unable to breath. I thought its the end... I closed my eyes again... murmured my mothers name and asked god to forgive me for all the times when I didn't listen. I could feel the little bubbles of breath escaping from me... taking with them all my hope and strength. I felt weak.. I felt dead. Suddenly a soft voice whispered asking me to give one last try... I decided to do that. I opened my eyes, generated some energy from somewhere... gave a good push and aaaaaaaah!! Yes the sweet air hit me.. I was up on top of this water body that tried to kill me... I saw trees smiling at me.. birds chirping to welcome me back to life.

Some lessons are learnt the hard way... there is no other way out. Good experiences becomes memories and bad once teach lessons. I saved my life and am reborn a better person. I opened my eyes to a new perspective of the Darwin world where there is chaos and uncertainly... rules doesn't work here... its unpredictable, mysterious and the fittest one survives. I decided to make myself strong to survive. Am not gonna reveal the secret of the new found strength but I lost the fear of taking dips in the deep water now... I know I can stand the tides... Common life, its u or me out there. Am not gonna be defeated so easily... its gotta be the right way... its gotta be my way!

Last few months I faced a hell lot of resistance from life.. things just weren't working out. Everything I did.. was wrong. Everything I wished.. was rejected. Everyone I loved.. was hurt. I had no where to go... nothing to look upto... wasn't alone but still felt so lonely. Things just started getting so messed up that I couldn't even start to untangle. I gave up and was building my strength to fight back. I was waiting for the high tide to passby so that I can swim back again... persistence... patience and faith were keeping me up. It was the possibility that kept me going, not the guarantee. What I learnt from this bad terrible phase of my life is...

> Never ever taken anyone for granted.
> The more close u r to someone, the more are the chances of getting hurt from them.
> If they dont wanna listen, they wont listen. Dont waste your time explaining.
> If they wanna go, just let them go. Dont beg them to stay.. its just emotional torture for them then.
> Wait for the right time and never never give up the hope.
> Life isnt a fairy tale but then sometimes dreams do come true.
> The stronger is the bond, the easier it is to break Ego.
> Lie has various flavors, its ok to try it sometimes.
> Relationship dies when communication stops.
> Be true to urself and accept urself.
> One day.. someday... all good things will happen to good people.
> All stories have a The End... earlier the better