Gonna miss this....

Farewells are perhaps the 'toughest' part of a human's life. At-times I wonder, why cant we stay with 'our' people forever. Come to think of it, it takes so long to establish a deep relationship and by the time the real bond gets established, its time to move on and make new bonds. Of-course making new bonds doesn't mean breaking the old once but yeah when the attention gets diverted, then maintaining a relationship becomes a bit difficult. Its so rightly said, making a relationship is much more easier than maintaining it and such maintained relationships make way for sum great friendships!!

When I firstly joined M.Sc, I didnt really knew why am doing it except for the fact that it was the only link btw B.Sc. and Ph.D and since I knew I wil b doing the latter, I had to join M.Sc. Getting into this department was a cake walk and I had a very strong passion towards Physics which drove me through this whole 2 years. Never intended to make friends here... all I wanted from this place was knowledge and mastery of this subject. My department is perhaps the most 'student-friendly' and we got quite a flexible system here. And the final year electronics lab sure rocks - No attendance, No record files... its just ur dedication and hard work that pulls u through.

First sem was quite tough getting adjusted to this new system, facing 200 new faces and trying to make a stand. Classical mechanics tut classes used to be so scary with nothing getting into head and there used to be hardly any interaction in classes except for exchange of tut answers. Recognizing group mates and sub-group mates took away our major part of first sem and when that was done, it was exam days and first sem got wrapped up very soon. Second sem was fun with all of us spreading our wings and seriously creating friend circle. Can never forget those days when me n Ayu used to solve quantum tut questions sitting in the metro or outside csl. That time our ruling equation was 'study=fun' and I really really enjoyed a lot with amazing subjects, amazing teachers and books.

Final year electronics lab was probably the best part of the whole M.Sc. and I enjoyed this phase much more than my graduation days. 'Wonderful people' are the real asserts of the lab. There were laughter, smiles, music, giggles, tears, romance, irritations, frustrations... probably all the emotions you can think about, we experienced all of them in this one lab. A place which I would always remember having enjoyed the most. There is sumthing strange about this lab, before stepping inside the door everyone will b laughing and giggling and will be full of energy but as soon as one steps in, all the energy would have disappeared as if there are energy suckers fixed in the entry door and these energy suckers gives us our energy back when we step out.

Every group in the lab had a tale of its own and we were all far far from perfection but I always felt that my group was probably the 'best' among all the others since I never faced all those strange problems that my other friends faced. 'Friends' ya I got them from this lab. Real gem of people.... gosh! I wonder how can people actually be so good and caring. If not for these people, M.Sc. would have been a terrible experience but thanks to them, it turned out to be very exciting and fulfilling. All those small little things... 'apna adda', gol-gappa mess in class, Holi celebrations, photo sessions, after-result side effect, trouble-shooter family, make up sessions, the 'blue-liquid' party, the many movies, the mast gossips, the problem-solution series, internal exam preparation, CSL hangouts, zoobi-doobi dance, My smilies n kamla nagar mkt, jai javan chowmine, walk to metro station, deep fried burger treat.... memories! memories!! How badly i want them to stay forever....!!

I remember telling Ayu a month ago "Its not the people, its the time". But guess I was wrong. I always valued 'time' more than 'people' but now I feel mayb its the 'people' who make 'time' so special. I will always be very grateful to all these friends of mine and am not mentioning their names coz I know they dont need me to. Its a dual way path and I have always tried my best to give twice as much as I take but if unknowingly I have hurt any one of u, then I wil take this chance to apologize for that. U guys rock and I can never thank god enough to have brought people like you into my life. U all have taught me, and I learnt. U cared for me, and I acknowledged . U made me laugh, I felt happy. U supported me, and I needed it. U payed for food, I ate it. U solved tut sheets, I copied it. U made me study, I made faces. U asked me to write a blog, I did it :) :)

Standing out in crowd

What will you call a girl who lives to eat… who is born as a ‘momma’… whose face is a pure reflection of her mind… who goes wild on the DJ beats… who suddenly starts singing and dancing on road… who just don’t like the crowded buses… whose bag is always loaded, be it the starting or the ending of semester… who gets damn angry when someone ignores her… who is silly enough to announce her stupid crush to the whole world… who maintains a meticulously completed class notes so that others can easily get it photocopied… who just don’t have the tolerance for negative things… who hates corruption and dishonesty… who wants things to be just ‘clear’, whatever it may take… who gets dreamy and goes to the dream world given a chance, but is quick enough to return to earth once shaken… who understands my unexpressed emotions and has learnt enough to take care of me without mine asking for help… well, I call her AYU.

Its been almost 5 years now… we met on the first day of admission in our under grad college. She imitates the first meeting scene so well, me the serious nerd walk over to her and says “excuse me, black pen hai”. Never expected this kinda friendship that time… the kind of friendship that we share, its very difficult to put in words. We are always together, to the extent that in our Dept. people actually get confused with our names and its nothing unusual when ppl call me as Ayushi n her as Shruti.

A variety of people come and go through our lives but only a few touches our heart and those few leave their impact on our lives. This girl has influenced me and supported me through my think and thins. When I turn back and imagine myself without this solid support, I shiver thinking how my life would have been. There were tough days and I have been the reason for her precious tears falling on ground but then if not for those days, I wouldn’t have gotten a chance to wipe them off and get her radiant smile back on place. I have tortured her a lot by not letting her take leaves, making her work in lab when she will be in absolutely no mood for that, openly showing disinterest in a few topics which she classifies as ‘interesting’, stopping her from eating all those road side junks that she considers ‘heavens’, scolding her rudely and badly for her little mistakes which now I feel I should have neglected… her life might have been much easier for her without me in it.
 

But at the end of the day, she says “Even if I don’t agree with you, I know you are right” and that one line would be enough to forgo all the silly misunderstandings. We have grown together… and learnt together. She has learnt to use her head and I have learnt to use my heart. Her ‘pravachans’ which I very conveniently ignore, has deep within really influenced me. A few common qualities and many uncommon qualities have deepened this bond. We have now reached a stage where we can predict each others moves… and at times this understanding amazes us. She knows what I really mean when I say ‘haan… am ok’ and when I say ‘mess ho gaya yaar’.

A few months from now and I don’t know which way our lives gonna take us to. We are done with the ‘farewell’ day and we both managed not to get senti and to enjoy the day to the fullest. But we know, the actually farewell is around the corner. Its gonna be tough if we part ways and its gonna be amazing if we manage to pull on for a few more years. 

Hey Ayu ! I just wanted to give you a little surprise to tell you what you mean to me. Things will lose charm with passing time but words are the most precious gift I could have given to you. Kal ko kuch bhi ho, I will always feel lucky to have gotten a friend like you in my life. You were there… you are there and you will be there…! Am sure our kids will be proud of our friendship and will get something to learn from us. There is a whole wide world for you to reach and lot many small and big happiness just waiting to embrace u… go girl, conquer the world ! All the very best.