Miss.Understanding

“I didn’t mean like that…”

“U always take me wrong…”

“Gosh! U think I did it purposely??”

“I swear, I didn’t had the least idea this will happen…”

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“How can U ever think like that?”

“Am sorry, never meant to hurt u.”

“I least expected u to be reacting like this……….”

sounds so much familiar right??

Each one of us do need to use such sentences at-least once a month n at-max, much more frequently… either to friend, or parents, teachers, neighbors... n who not!

I always feel am damn misunderstood whenever things go wrong. Is it possible? I mean is it that am always misunderstood, or is it that I always do wrong things?

I don’t like to say sorry… n esply for a thing which is not wrong (from my point of view). But what am I supposed to do when am wrong from someone else’s point of view? I don’t feel ‘sorry’ when I know am not wrong… is it any use using the word ‘sorry’ in such situations too??? It happened so many times…. mom would be scolding me for getting up at 6:30 n not at 6. But I would be knowing that I was studying till 2 last night n wont feel sorry for what I did… n moreover I wont even tell mom I was awoke so late last night, maybe coz of my ego or something.. I don’t know... but am not sorry…

Am I arrogant? Am I a bad girl who doesn’t listen to her parents? Am I such a ‘head-weighed’ girl who won’t even apologize for the so-called mistake of hers? I mean… can that 30 min I kept sleeping change my mother’s feeling for me?

Me and one of my (best) friend Ayushi once went to give viva together on a subject. Though we both went together, sir didn’t ask her even one question n kept on asking ‘me’ questions. Initially I though he wil b asking me first n then later her… maybe… but he kept on addressing me n was asking questions. Soon I realized that he is towards the end n he didn’t even ask her one question. Wat am I supposed to do? If I don’t answer sir’s question and look at her, then sir wil think I don’t know the answer. And if I don’t give her a chance, then she might get lesser marks for not answering anything, is it my mistake??????? I never asked sir to point out at me and ask questions. When we were finished with the viva and came out of the room, she was very cross with me and didn’t talk to me properly. Like I said, I didn’t really felt I was wrong so didn’t felt like saying sorry to her… but then I can’t afford to lose her… so I said sorry… was I right? I mean wats the meaning of saying sorry when I don’t really mean it?

Once during exam, a class-mate of mine, Nisha walked past my seat n took away my answer sheet. She was coping when m’am caught her n all my explanations went void. My favorite teacher, knowing me very well, accused me of cheating! Misunderstood once more…

Me and my bro were traveling by bus once to a park. Its wasn’t one of those ‘heavily crowded’ bus but was not empty either. When my stop neared I got up n my bro was still sitting. Though he saw me getting up, he didn’t got up n I thought when I get down, he too will. I got down n he was still sitting in the bus. The bus took him away. I was a little casual n though I wil call him up in his cell n wil ask him to get down in the next stop. I called up n mom picked up the phone n to my dismay he had left the phone at home. Was it my mistake? I mean did I purposely not ask him to get down to make sure that he gets lost?

I can go on giving examples. But that not the point. Even u guys can put up 10000++ examples like these but where is the solution? We all face situations like these but how should we react?? Misunderstanding… a word I worst fear of…

ATLAST…………..

It feels so good to blog again after a bigggggggg time holidays I took for myself... he he... With hundreds of things to blog (pending since the last article), I don’t know if I’ll be writing al of them... but today am gonna write. It’s not that I have become al that busy, but some how I guess I just couldn’t sit to write. Its not that I ran short of idea or things to write, but its just that … I don’t know... I don’t know y I didn’t write for so long. Should have! But today after a really long time I said “Shruti, u have to do it today” enough of writing practical record files, finishing notes, completing tutorial sheets, studying for vivas… etc. etc. but am glad am sitting here prepared to spend the whole day blogging today. well u can say that its my way of celebrating the “postpone of my internal exams by a week”. Well that reminds me... I have still not updated about my current course.

Well at present am doing Masters In Science (M.Sc) in Physics. And believe me, am loving it!! Well things are not really tough my side but daily traveling up n down to college is worning me out! U know what... college is in North Delhi n am put up in South Delhi. Yeah there does exist a direct bus from my place but it takes 1:30 hours for it to reach the destination n its too bugging to sit in that bus. I really can’t afford to do a ‘Dilli darshan’ early morning. My first class is at 9 in the morning n if I have to take that bus, I have to leave home by 7:20.

Even if I compromise on that, there is no guarantee that that bus wil come when am waiting in the bus stop. Its so damn bugging u know! Other alternative bus route which I got to know from my seniors is a shorter one which makes me reach college in an hour, but I have to change 3 to 4 buses for that. Not a bad deal I say. After all I can leave home ‘aaram’ se at 8. Though sometimes changing so many buses early in the morning is not that easy too. Moreover Delhi’s bus stops are ‘masha allah’ so damn good that except for the bus-stops, everywhere there wil b shade! And DTC buses stop only at the bus stop n not near the shady area. Now for those who don’t know wat ‘DTC’ stands for... let me tell u that DTC-Delhi transport coorporation. These r govt. buses n students get a pass to travel in that. N guess wat is the fare for that pass????


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Okkk lemme tel u dat… its 75 bugs for 5 months. So standing in the sun is not that bad too isn’t it??

U might be wondering y I don’t catch metro... well I do that at-times. But u c I don’t have a metro station very near to my place. I gotta change 2 buses to reach metro station n then again the prob. is that my deptt. is a bit too far from metro station n it demands a 15 min walk. So at the end, metro takes a longer time!! Yeah its very comfortable with ACs on.. but these days metro is more like a local train with no seats available any time of the day. So at the end of the day, I spend at the minimum 2 hrs a day traveling n at max 3-4 hrs traveling in Delhi roads! N mind u, North Delhi roads r seriously not so amusing too!! But still I wil say that am loving all these things. Though I don’t get time to pursue my hobbies anymore… no time to cooking... no time to paint... no time to sing... left dance classes too... but still...

I got only 3 subjects in this sem. One is Classical Physics... damn abstract... not one step is “obvious” n these r things which r there coz they have to be... no use questioning coz the more u question on these, the more questions arises. So I have decided to deal with this topic as it is! If not for our Prof. Dr. Debajyoti Choudhry who is so damn cute, I would have hardly attended the lectures. U know what, our sir is just like a cute little teddy, who spins around himself to explain spinning of top... he he... n his antique torn grey shoes n “white-n-blue” striped t-shirt (his uniform) keeps us alert in his class. Moreover I have heard that he sometimes wears ‘havai-chappals’ to college!!

Next is Quantum mechanics... goody goody things... but the only prob is, we have already learnt high level quantum mech in B.Sc level n now we r learning the basics!! Lolzz... weird I know... but then... that’s the system. Prof. Amithaba Mukherjee is sure a lovely “made-for-students” kindda teacher... n every other day we have an interaction session with him asking us wat changes we want in deptt.
Next sub is my fav Electronics. This part is divided into 4 parts n four diff teachers wil b taking our classes. Well the teacher for ‘communication’ part was Dr. Amita Chandra... a terror she was... with the statement she issued in the first class “no body wil enter my class after I have come and no one wil leave before I do” she got the title ‘Hitler’ n she was. But we couldn’t have had a better teacher n I can say that for sure coz I have seen how Dr. P.D Sahare for ‘network analysis’ is. And since we don’t have any attendance system in the deptt, so we comfortably chuck his classes. So u c it’s not al that bad too. N yeah v have computer classes where we have to do scientific c++ programs in Linux n this is one of my fav classes n prog is damnnn fun!!! N of course, how can I miss out on labs? Got 4 labs… finished with nuclear lab n next wil go for electronics lab. 2 more labs in next sem.

Well thats is as of now. Will surely keep writing frequently. Pls friends, suggest some ways by which I can make myself a little regular. I seriously want to write but u c “time nahi hai”!!